When it rains it pours.

We don't really have a update on baby. I've been doing loads of research and thinks really aren't looking good.
Iam so scared. I just don't understand why this is happening to us again. I feel like we are being punished.
All I ever wanted is to have a large family (4or more children) and that is being ripped way from us.
Soon I'll have 4 children but half in the stars.
This is so unfair.
I just don't know what to do.
I can't believe it's so close to Charlie's birthday! As if his birthday isn't that d ebough

I really hoped this post would never be needed

Yesterday after waiting 3 weeks for genetic results we found out we are going to lose another little boy.
We are currently 15 weeks and not sure what to do.
We. Are struggling really badly. Charlies first Angel birthday next week and being told this baby is very ill is killing us.