I know no one knows what to say to a grieving family, I know its worse when they are grieving for a baby. Babies aren't meant to die are they. They are meant to grow into old age and then die. They don't all do that thought, sadly.
So as everything is trying (and 90% of the time failing) to find the right words to say to us we are finding it 100x harder to find words to explain this pain, this heartache without people thinking that we are going to end our lives. Yes we want to be with our Angel baby, I would do anything to be with him. I hate this world right now! I hate God right now! I hate Karma. I hate EVERYTHING!
I hate this pain, I hate the Stress and I hate the looks people give me!
I hate that people say I can have more. I can yes, I agree I could have more children, I am lucky I have never had any problems getting pregnant, but I don't want a new baby. I want my Angel back. I want HIM and ONLY HIM!
Yes a baby would fill my womb for 9 months and my arms but not the HUGE hole in my heart! I'll never get the part of me that died with my baby back, NEVER. I will never be the same again. I wish I could go back to not worrying about anything, never knowing the pain of your baby dying. To never know this heartache but I cant time travel.
I wish I could go back and make sure my babies chromosomes were ok and to stop his heart from stopping, I wish I could stop this.
So please forgive me if you message me, text me, call me or talk to me and all I say is 'I don't know' or send you a 'x'
I just don't know what to say. Please just tell me you love me and be there for me! Or for any grieving family. Grieving is very lonely.
So as everything is trying (and 90% of the time failing) to find the right words to say to us we are finding it 100x harder to find words to explain this pain, this heartache without people thinking that we are going to end our lives. Yes we want to be with our Angel baby, I would do anything to be with him. I hate this world right now! I hate God right now! I hate Karma. I hate EVERYTHING!
I hate this pain, I hate the Stress and I hate the looks people give me!
I hate that people say I can have more. I can yes, I agree I could have more children, I am lucky I have never had any problems getting pregnant, but I don't want a new baby. I want my Angel back. I want HIM and ONLY HIM!
Yes a baby would fill my womb for 9 months and my arms but not the HUGE hole in my heart! I'll never get the part of me that died with my baby back, NEVER. I will never be the same again. I wish I could go back to not worrying about anything, never knowing the pain of your baby dying. To never know this heartache but I cant time travel.
I wish I could go back and make sure my babies chromosomes were ok and to stop his heart from stopping, I wish I could stop this.
So please forgive me if you message me, text me, call me or talk to me and all I say is 'I don't know' or send you a 'x'
I just don't know what to say. Please just tell me you love me and be there for me! Or for any grieving family. Grieving is very lonely.
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