There are times in your life that make you see what you got, there are times when you just want to hide and cry.
When you lose a child you have both things at once.
You learn who is true to you and who loves you and will do anything to support you though anything in this life. You also cant believe that this is your life now! That a huge part of your life and soul is missing. You have funny comments said to you, you crave to hold you baby one last time and to never let go of them. You want to know why this happened and if there is anything you could of done to stop it from happening. You want to know if you were to blame for this happening and even when you find out 100% that it just happened or the reason why you still blame yourself as after all you were meant to keep your baby safe wasn't you!
We find out on the 7th aug what happened to our baby, why his brain didn't develop.
The wait for this appointment is so painful, so upsetting and unfair, I don't understand why we haven't been told already.
I just hope it doesn't ever happen again.
When you lose a child you have both things at once.
You learn who is true to you and who loves you and will do anything to support you though anything in this life. You also cant believe that this is your life now! That a huge part of your life and soul is missing. You have funny comments said to you, you crave to hold you baby one last time and to never let go of them. You want to know why this happened and if there is anything you could of done to stop it from happening. You want to know if you were to blame for this happening and even when you find out 100% that it just happened or the reason why you still blame yourself as after all you were meant to keep your baby safe wasn't you!
We find out on the 7th aug what happened to our baby, why his brain didn't develop.
The wait for this appointment is so painful, so upsetting and unfair, I don't understand why we haven't been told already.
I just hope it doesn't ever happen again.
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