Little update

I have been very poorly over the last little while.
Last night I got very bad and ended up in the hospital.  I will update more when I feel a little better.
Please keep my family in your thoughts we could really do with some love and luck.
We have had the worst year of our lifes and it's just getting worse and worst. I can't see any light in this very very dark place. It feels very lonely and upsetting.
I hope you all understand that I am in a bad place and trying to get out of this place but it's very hard and scary.