My life now is full of dread, worry and panic. My life is full of pain and heartache. I may be physically well but all my body hurts all day and night. I dread my earthchildrens nap and bed times as I am worried that I'll walk into their room and I won't hear them breathing or snoring. That I won't be able to wake them up.
I worry about everything 100x more than I ever have (and trust me I am a worrier)
I panic about everything. Things I've never thought of before scare me.
When we lost our baby all our innocents went.
All the innocent things you never think you ever happen to you or people you know comes out of hiding because guess what something you never thought would happen to you did happen! Your baby died and babies aren't meant to die!
You get pregnant and your told your bring a baby home but that didn't happen for you.
So all these things your told won't happen as it's rare or unlikely to happen become a possibility, a huge possibility.
Please understand a grieving family is scared. Scared it will happen again if they go on to have more children. Scared they might lose someone else close to them.
Everything is scary, everything is raw, everything hurts.
About Me
- mummylouisex
- I am a young (ish) mummy to 2 little boys and a mummy to a beautiful angel born at 27+4 weeks, i miss you so much </3 iam in a long term relationship with my 3 babies daddy!
Friday, 18 July 2014
My life now
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So sorry that you have had to go through this, no parent should loose a child, its the harshest thing I can think can happen to anyone. I hope your anxiety fades soon and you can enjoy your earth babies while remembering the little life you lost so cruelly. Thoughts and prayers with you all xx
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