I just want my baby back, I would do anything to be with her, I don't want to breath anymore. I just want to be with her forever, I just can't cope, I feel like I am half dead already.
I am trying to put a brave face on and look like I am coping but I am not, I am not coping! I just want to be dead. I want to never wake up.
Everyone would be better with out me, they would have such a better life if I was gone, if I disappeared forever.
I've failed everyone. I failed my baby and children, I failed my husband.
I just want this pain to leave right noe
About Me
- mummylouisex
- I am a young (ish) mummy to 2 little boys and a mummy to a beautiful angel born at 27+4 weeks, i miss you so much </3 iam in a long term relationship with my 3 babies daddy!
Saturday, 24 May 2014
Please take me away from this pain
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This isn't anything that you've caused. Please talk to your partner about how you are feeling and don't bottle it up.
ReplyDeleteAww hunnie please.don't blame yourself.. You need a cuddle and a talk to someone, please don't try and.cope by yourself.. Lots.of people love you and need you but you need to love and take care of yourself too.... Biggest hugs xx
ReplyDeleteRemember, you have too boys that need you..
ReplyDeletewhat has happened isn't your fault and you can be strong enough to get through this.
She got to hear your heart, she got to know your love. She knew you held on to her so tight until she was ready to let go. You were her hero, she knew this. Know this yourself. <3 You are a Hero.
ReplyDeleteSweetheart, please don't blame yourself. You have not failed anyone. You have found yourself in a postion that no-one should ever be in and you are doing so well. Don't be alone tonight, cuddle up to those 2 boys you have if needs be. You are their world, you are your husbands world and your Angel will be watching over you. She needs you to stay here with her Daddy and brothers. Love to you xx
ReplyDeleteYou did everything right. You loved her fiercely. You fought for her every step of the way and gave her the best chance, even when told to give up on her so many times, you held on. She was so lucky to have you as her mummy. You were not given this pain as a test or trial or punishment, she was given you as a blessing, because you would love her so much. She needed you and you stayed with her, you didn't push her away. You loved her for who she was. She felt your love so strong, and felt the love of her brothers as they talked to her and kissed your tummy. You enabled her to finish her earthly journey naturally, and peacefully. You carried her all the way. Now you need to grieve, and you are allowing yourself to feel. This pain is evidence of your enormous love, and the fact that you are allowing yourself to feel is evidence of your great strength. Sending all the love I can, this is the hardest part. xxxx
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