The truth is if i didnt have two earth children i wouldn't be alive right now, I would of ended this pain. I would be in heaven with my baby girl and never have to leave her but i have to stay strong and raise my two beautiful boys with this heartache, knowing in a few days i'll be delievering my baby girl and having to leave her and never see her grow up or even take a breath.
I keep hoping the pain meds i will be given gives me a bad reaction and all this pain and heartache gets taken away. Then i think my boys will be without me, would they be better of without me? Right now i think they would be, its my fault their sister will never come home, i am the one to blame for all this, i could of done something to stop baby girl from getting this problem. I hurt so much, i've made my family hurt so much.
About Me
- mummylouisex
- I am a young (ish) mummy to 2 little boys and a mummy to a beautiful angel born at 27+4 weeks, i miss you so much </3 iam in a long term relationship with my 3 babies daddy!
Sunday, 18 May 2014
The truth is i want to die!
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How could you have stopped your angel getting sick?
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong (i don't know you myself but am on dimplebum + dimplemuff) - to be open + share your thoughts on your blog - i don't think i could do it. From what I've seen on here + the group, there's a LOT of people holding you firmly in their thoughts + prayers xXx